Welcome to { Shadow of Reflection }

I see you dancing on the stage of a memory...

Oh, thank GOD!

Okay, that only lasted a few days. Which I am incredibly grateful for.

For those who don't know me in real life, I was born with cerebral palsy. Due to it, I was diagnosed with epilepsy and major depression (also known as recurrent, unipolar, or clinical depression). For those who know about that type of depression, it comes in spurts and is UGLY. Like, suicidal ugly. And the week before last I was given a job, a dream job, only to have the offer rescinded two days later, which really sparked it. I basically spent the past few days either crying, sleeping, or thinking of ways to kill myself, so I had to shut everything off. I couldn't afford to have any negativity in my life because it would make things worse. Luckily, it passed.

I'm not saying all of my last post was to be blamed on that however. If you email me, do not abuse me - it's NOT cool. The stuff people say in emails is unreal.

There are lots of new screencaps up. I'll be adding additional info to this post later, such as links and images, but I wanted to post this because it's a happier one.

New Movie and TV Promotional Images and Stills

- The Avengers
- The Dark Knight Rises
- Shame
- Snow White and the Huntsman
- Supernatural
- The Vampire Diaries
- The Walking Dead

Movie Screencaps
- Puss in Boots (BluRay)

TV Screencaps
- Awake 1x07 - Ricky's Tacos (LOGO FREE)
- Awake 1x08 - Nightswimming (LOGO FREE)
- Awake 1x09 - Game Day (LOGO FREE)
- Fringe 4x20 - Worlds Apart
- Fringe 4x21 - Brave New World Part One
- Game of Thrones 2x05 - The Ghost of Harrenhal
- The Killing 2x01 - Reflections (LOGO FREE)
- The Killing 2x02 - My Lucky Day (LOGO FREE)
- The Killing 2x03 - Numb (LOGO FREE)
- The Killing 2x04 - Ogi Jun (LOGO FREE)
- The Killing 2x05 - Ghosts of the Past (LOGO FREE)
- The Killing 2x06 - Openings (LOGO FREE)
- Mad Men 5x06 - Far Away Places (LOGO FREE)
- Mad Men 5x07 - At the Codfish Ball (LOGO FREE)
- Once Upon a Time 1x20 - The Stranger
- Supernatural 7x20 - The Girl with the Dungeons and Dragons Tattoo (LOGO FREE)
- Supernatural 7x21 - Reading is Fundamental (LOGO FREE)
- The Vampire Diaries 3x21 - Before Sunset (LOGO FREE)

I feel confused
I'm listening to Sister by The Nixons

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Posted on 04 May 2012 by Tracy

Ain't it fun when your friends despise what you've become?

This is a sad entry for me.

I have decided to put the site on hiatus. I don't know for how long.

Reason being, this site is the part of my life that makes me very happy. However, it has recently become something very stressful. I like to share caps and more for the fun of it and to help others, but with the constant bombardment of people asking why certain caps aren't posted yet, big enough, or accusations that they aren't what they say they are are starting to make me feel really bad. I even had someone tell me I stole them, which was terribly hurtful.

I don't want this to become something I hate. I think people can understand this. And this is a terribly depressing time in my life, which makes it much easier for me to get angry about smaller things and I don't want to take that out on people who visit the site. Nor do I want to take the site down completely in an angry moment.

I have dismantled my personal Facebook as well, as I feel my real life really needs to get in order at this point and I can't handle dealing with people ripping on me online as well as in real life. I spent a large portion of last week feeling worse than I have in my life, to the point where I nearly took some very drastic measures. I can't afford for that to happen right now.

Everything currently on the site will remain up for you to view.

I feel crushed
I'm listening to Ain't It Fun by The Dead Boys

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Posted on 29 Apr 2012 by Tracy

In my body, the lonely creatures scream...

Well, my last week was interesting and quite awful all around. Had an awesome dream job that was supposed to start this Monday. HUGE DEAL. They emailed me two days later and recinded the offer due to a ridiculous reason (check out my LJ, as it is just TOO long to put on here). So I've been quite depressed for a while now. I got another job, a temp one, that I start on Monday, so at least I have something. That's good. But I cannot be happy about it because all I worry about is how I'm going to mess it up.

I've been seeing a lot of repeat stuff on my tagboard. I don't mind people posting on the board, but please refrain from posting things such as asking when I am going to post caps for a show that aired within the last 24 hours or when I am going to get another season up and things of that nature. Some shows take longer than others to get and some of them (Downtown Abbey) are severly policed now online, so I have to wait until I get the physical BluRay sets. Also, in regards to BluRays that don't look like BluRays, they all are. I don't screw people over by posting the word BluRay after the title. That would just be wrong. Occasionally there will be pixalation due to possible prints on the disc, the reading of the disc through the programs used to cap, and more. It's not a perfect science, but they are all BluRays when marked as such.

My capping may slow a bit now since I will be working for at least the next six months. Just an FYI. However, I am starting to cap the second season of "The Killing". I had been planning on it initially, but hadn't even realized the second season was on. So those will be up soon.

Move Screencaps
- Leon: The Professional (Extended Edition) (BluRay)
- Pirates of the Caribbean: The Curse of the Black Pearl (BluRay)
- Pirates of the Caribbean: Dead Man’s Chest (BluRay)
- Pirates of the Caribbean: At World’s End (BluRay)
- Pirates of the Caribbean: On Stranger Tides (BluRay)

TV Screencaps
- Game of Thrones: 2x04 - Garden of Bones
- Once Upon a Time: 1x19 - The Return
- The Vampire Diaries: 3x20 Do Not Go Gentle (LOGO FREE)

I feel sore
I'm listening to The new version of "The Twilight Zone"

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Posted on 28 Apr 2012 by Tracy

I close my eyes and fly out of my mind...

It's so funny how things change from day to day. I did an interview the other day that I thought went really well. Well, on Thursday, I was told that I was being passed over because the interviewer said I had all the qualifications, however, she felt I wasn't professional enough because my husband had driven me to my interview and when I went into the interview, I forgot to take my sunglasses off my head. Not my eyes, mind you. I had worn them outside and when I was inside, I pushed them up to the top of my head. Due to my nervousness about the interview, I totally forgot they were even there. Thursday was pretty bad for me after that because when you don't get a job based on that kind of ridiculous crap, things feel a bit harsh. However, I got two more interviews today, and a chance to get a temp to hire job that I will know about on Monday. So my mood has changed tremendously over the past day, thank God.

I made a new fanmix. I don't know if anyone ever checks these out from this site, but I post them here anyway. If you are curious about my past ones, they are posted in the media section as well as on my Livejournal. This one was a gift for a friend's birthday on Livejournal. It is all instrumental, which I personally love.

On another note, lots of caps again. When it comes to franchises such as the "Scream" films, I tend to cap all the films in a franchise if someone mentions it just because I'm an organizational maniac that way, lol. :) Also, I wanted to mention "The Strangers" because I want to know if anyone else felt the same way regarding that film that I did. I am a major horror movie fan, but when I saw that one in the theater, I just remember feeling terribly sad. Maybe it's just because I'm getting older and realize that this stuff happens all the time. Good movie, but everyone told me how much it scared them and I just felt so sad during it that I almost started to cry. But on a more entertaining side, my husband and I have a friend that we always love to play pranks on. We were out eating one night and he called us and told us he had just watched it and was totally freaked out. We proceeded to go buy Halloween masks and go stand in his yard outside his windows. That little incident always makes me feel a little better when I see the film again. :) And I guess on another film note (I'm a total film dork, which you guys probably already knew, lol), I was capping "Saw 3D" and realized how sad I was that they weren't going to make another "Saw" film. I mean, I feel that the first one was the absolute best and that the rest went downhill from there, but I always liked them because I found it very creative that they were always able to come up with new traps and ideas. And I don't mean for that to sound awful, you know, like I enjoy different forms of torture or anything, but I always found it creative on the part of the writers. Plus, LOVED the music. Whenever the "Hello Zepp" track kicked in during ANY of the installments, I always got a sickening feeling of dread. But who knows? Maybe they'll just decide the hell with it and do another one.

And FINALLY, I added my "Lost" gallery to the screencap gallery. Normally I don't add full series galleries until they are completely capped, but I got a lot of requests for "Lost", so I figured I would add the gallery, show you what I have so far, and keep adding to it. I have all the seasons to cap, so they will all eventually be added.

New Fanmix

Medium: Books
Fandom: Twilight Series
Subject: Rosalie Hale and Emmett Cullen
Title: The Mechanic and the Bear
Notes: Instrumental fanmix following key moments through the relationship of Rosalie and Emmett.